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Its ironic that Men’s Rights Activists keep whining about how feminism is unnecessary all the while providing the worst examples of misogyny and rape culture which further prove how necessary feminism is and how much work we still have to do.
These absolutely worthless scumbags create an even bigger reason for all women to mistrust men, because they have clearly stated their intent to hide their true opinions in situations when doing so would give them the opportunity to cause even more harm to women.

i am so tired

i sleep more and more but i wake up feeling as if i have been awake for days

i no longer eat because i no longer feel hungry

maybe i will starve to death in my sleep

"My feelings were hurt because you told me not to misgender you in front of people because it means you are not being honest and upfront with the people around you."

- Someone who thinks they are a supportive ally.

My presentation as my actual gender is in no way dishonest or misleading. Deciding when, to whom, or whether to ever disclose my transgender status is a personal choice that is not up for discussion or debate by cisgender people. Even upon disclosure, misgendering is still insulting harmful, and shows a fundamental disrespect for not only my identity, but for me as a human being.

When I explained to him that doing so is emotionally damaging and can actually create a danger to my physical safety, he said:

“Well, don’t hang out with people that would hurt you. No one should be able to dictate your behavior, force you to be someone you’re not, or upset you.”

Ninety-nine percent of the time, people who are violently transphobic do not have an identifiable mark that allows me to be able to pick them out of a crowd. Sometimes, even those who seem to be open-minded towards the general idea can react horribly when actually confronted with it. These observations come from first-hand experience. Outing me to everyone around me only opens more room for abuse.

The last part of his sentence was so stupid that it doesn’t even need a response, but if you are so adamant about being unaffected by genuinely upsetting things, you should not be complaining about an underservingly polite and simple request.

If you cannot make the effort to change a single pronoun in your vocabulary, you will have less space in my life than the strangers to whom I refuse to disclose.

I get irrationally upset when I see expensive septum clickers, especially those from BVLA, being worn in ear piercings. This is clearly a result of jealousy, because with my limited funds, I am incredibly envious of those who can afford to wear nearly unaffordable jewellery in a place where its detailing may never be seen and fully appreciated. Although with proper style, sizing, and anatomy some clickers look great in daith piercings, (I’m looking at you, Industrial Strength Oddyssey Septum Clicker #5,) I would much rather use that purchase to decorate my actual septum piercing since it is the centerpiece of my face and provides the maximum potential for showcasing the beauty of each design.

I don’t know if I’m not eating enough or maybe my immune system or other major aspects of my health are compromised but I can’t fucking heal my piercings. Everything is inflamed, irritated or bleeding when it should have been long healed.

I find it really funny how the same people that laugh and repeat my name ten times when they meet me, and feel that they are entitled to know whether or not it is my “real” name, are the same ones who will never do this to a cisgender person regardless of how silly or bizarre of a nickname they provide.

I feel this overwhelming need to finish my facial piercing project as soon as possible. I just want to have my high nostrils pierced and feel like at least one aspect of me is finally complete.

Even though it is winter, I still really want to shave my head again. I don’t want it just to be cut shorter, I want there to be nothing but stubble left on my scalp.

I want to buy black sclera contact lenses so I can look as alien as I feel and be neither male or female.

I am really tired of people telling me that I am somehow an “artist” because I used to draw things and because I sometimes make things out of beads.

They assume that I must be creative because I look weird and have piercings and tell me that I should “show my work” regardless of how many times I tell them that I’m not.

I am not, and have never been creative. Every single thing I have done has just been a poor imitation of the ideas an labour of another.

I understand that art and creativity have the power to have an immensely positive effect on a person’s life, but I am not one of those people and I neither need or want to have any involvement in such things.

Every single “creative” thing I have done in the past has had a profoundly negative effect on my life and psychological well-being. It has made me chastise myself for every mistake and imperfection and despise myself for insulting another person’s hard work by attempting to imitate it. I receive absolutely no pleasure, peace or satisfaction from creating anything, and continuing to do so would be the psychological equivalent of bashing my head against a wall.

I’ve spent the entire morning staring at photographs of different types of opals and I can’t wait to order threaded ends like the ones above for my cheek piercings.
I can’t decide whether to leave them plain or have them anodized a gold-like colour. Gold and opals look beautiful together but they would no longer match any of my other jewellery, since I do not have enough money to upgrade everything at once.

Today I hope to have started doing sea salt and chamomile soaks for my piercings again. Hopefully, if I stay dedicated to it, it will help in the healing process of my cheek and nostril piercings.

The only way to eliminate irritation in piercings is to not only treat the symptoms, such as bumps and redness, but to eliminate the underlying cause. In my case the problem is probably my frequent touching of the jewellery in a half-sleeping state at night.

Below is a list of things I need to do in order to somewhat reduce the damage I have already caused and hopefully improve my piercings’ condition.

Keep the piercings clean.
Do chamomile tea and sea salt soaks with hot water twice a day.Do not touch the jewellery or pick at the dry skin or discharge.

Its pretty simple, but depression makes the easiest things seem pointless, making them difficult and painful.

The only thing I can do is to try to do this one day at a time. Maybe I will take photographs of the process so I can have a timeline of the results.